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SaddeningSaddening,
It's been saddening to watch it all pass me erasing it flat, trampling it down, etched and pressed clean down into terra firma. And I, yeah I stand idle and still; that perfect lifeless still holding my breath from here until dawn past the old town graveyard, past the mute mountain girl, past the city general store and out to the 'side. Out to some kind of life, onto a new road, a journey onto the back seat of his old Cadillac. The broken leather seats the rattling engine. Looking for the door handle my exit to Highway Eden. |
Destroy MeDestroy me
I'm changing anyway morphing into someone perfect for you. My picture is something beyond my sexy, broken state of mine (Chorus) Everything I do is premeditated Everything I take is planned Everything I do is just for you I had a heart attack Before I was nine I'm patterned and cut to fit you right molding to you now wrapping tight around your leg my sexy, broken state of mind (Chorus) I wish you were gone I wish you were stoned I wish you had stayed I wish you away If you want me to I'd be straight for you If you ask me nice If you ask me nice |
Music for JessicaDeep and somber your life has been
a cello with broken strings accidents, incidents, like puncture wounds stacatto across your pages Orchestrate your life from here your instrument is your hands the wheel is yours to steer things can only go up from here Drawing forth a melodic melody playing it out on a slow piano roll entertaining a blackened notions hoping that it's roots wont hold The pit is full of broken parts everything you love is out of tune except when your chorus starts and you begin to learn your parts We start to learn you song in tune, and play it till tomorrow Until the rising moon, let's sing away your inlaid sorrow And play it till tomorrow, and play it till tomorrow Sing away your sorrow (It's your spotlight) |
DecimateBring me to your swimming pool
lay me down to your sound bring me up; it's just my luck like the leather that makes my tether that you hold on to to keep me close to you I cannot teach nor only preach that makes it harder for me to be smarter My lines curve and always swerve they're not straight, that's what I hate stab me up with your pushpins, put me in the discard bin Hit me in the fucking face; decimate the human race |
BiteMaybe I'm not what you expected here
Maybe it's not my place the sex last night was something of a time kinda funny how we both go that drunk that night. Maybe I'm something completely wonderful Maybe this is my house things are always different, sometimes better, in the dark 'cause all the pretty boys are walking around with my teeth marks (Chorus) And you better watch out 'cause I bite when least expected And that's because I'm a wolf in sheep's disguise And it runs in my family But something is changing this heart of mine it may seem more confusing. For once I'm completely sober It feel like my soul is falling 100 meters over the edge And you're waiting there to catch me. Maybe. I don't wanna get my foot stuck in the door again and I sure as hell don't want my heart there too. Maybe you should watch what you say, because I'll throw it right back at you (Chorus) X2 And maybe, this isn't the end yet This song might go on forever |
First ContactMake contact tonight
contact with me contact you've always wanted but you'll never see. Lay down here tonight down here with me, lay down here with me lay down here on the frozen grass with the me you'll never see. Make fire tonight make fire with me swallow the amber embers just because I'm me. Make contact tonight make contact with me that you'll always see And he doesn't notice the pain, the pain. And he doesn't notice the pain. |
Electric ShocksAny high that keeps me on fire
Any high that keeps me on fire Any high will keep me a liar Plug it into my live wire Tripping down into the fire Tripping down into the fire Tripping down will keep me a liar Plug it into my live wire Swallow down a spoonful of fire Swallow down a spoonful of fire Swallowing him will keep me a liar Plug it into my live wire Electricity feels just like fire Electricity feels just like fire Electric shocks keep me a liar Plug it into my live wire Plug it into my live wire Any high that keeps me on fire Any high that keeps me on fire Any high that keeps me on fire Any high that keeps me a liar... |
MissMiss.
The second hand goes sliding by again; everyone knows how and I know why. I missed it again he came riding in, wind on his eyes. I missed myself, left me behind again. Today this pretty Monday morning I had an emergency as my tornado whirled into my living room. Miss. The empty life, the dark and misty nights the setting, the rising moon. Miss. My former mind insanity and it's depth. In the morning I miss my life left behind on the second hand. |
SkitterYou make me skitter,
you make me skitter. I can move quicker and quicker. Quicker than light I am bitter I quite am, bitter. You make me skitter I crawl and I slither I gather my men I spit and I wither and throw stones at the sand. Because I skitter. I'm quicker than light his venom was sweeter and mine was bitter. Mine is so bitter it kills. I crawl and I spit I gather my men Get excited, get hit and throw stones at the sand. I skitter You make me skitter As far as I can tell, got lost in conclusions that turned into delusions. |
I'm Sorry ButFor all the advice I didn't take
and all the times I didn't listen and all the wrong choices that I make I'm sorry for what I'm missing. For all the time I wasted and all the people I pushed away and the little happy mask I pasted I'm sorry I refused to stay. For all my life now is gone and I can no longer go and I haven't turned into that swan I'm sorry I said "no". For now the time is coming near and faster it is flying and with that snarling laughing jeer I'm sorry but I'm dying |
Snow FallsGently it falls
from sheets made of lead and tenderly mauls upon peoples heads in eddies it drifts in currents it swirls upon wind it lifts On Earth it unfurls there it will stay its mocking is best and life keeps away from its icy cold breast |
I've Reached My Saturation PointI've reached my saturation point
I'm about to overflow I've strained too much upon this joint with all the shit I undergo I've come to an end I've made a wrong turn There are wounds I cannot mend And things that I don't learn If I don't get help soon I'll emotionally bleed I've swallowed too much And bit the hand that used to feed Bitter and empty are what I've become Soundless and helpless is me And I still haven't found my place in the sun I'm blinded and can't see |
Midnight BlueLook at how he lays asleep
aware of only dreams the outside world is void to him how strange and alien it seems the silver sweet sparkle of sleep the calm cool of night the hue of blue that it makes unaware of daytime's light from blue to pink to purple-red the sun begins to rise falls upon his sleeping brow and infiltrates the skies a long battle from night to day long from day to night each party winning again each holding different might Look at how he lays asleep aware of only dreams the outside world is void to him how strange and alien it seems |
DeeDee SweetieDeeDee sweetie,
what's the matter? Life has got you down. Pick up stones to count your blessings. Look how many I have found. Hymn to the WindSoft roll of thunder, flashing in your light
steady beating of the wind, let me know your might descend upon me gods on high, let me see your face bestow upon me all your gifts, and overflow me with your grace call of thunder hear me cry, loud and over you recede back into the clouds, the place from which you flew I'm one with them I'm one with me, I'm the broken link Threatening to fall off the edge, I'm the line that forms the brink |
Generosity of LifeI wish the doctors had revived me
oh, the things I'd see! like summer days and liquids blue or waves that slide across the sea scented flowers hued in pink crisp freshness of cut grass stinging chill of winter winds or the twangy sound of brass feel the sunshine on my face or the smile of a child different people, many friends April days oh so mild Tears that roll down people's cheeks the emptiness at night tragedies of everyday or the stabbing pain of a fight hear someone's dying words see them draw one final breath watch them slowly drift away into the shroud of death |
Passion RoseIn the garden life a'springs
the buds begin to form roots and all begin to spread all around the water hole The fountain pumps one dirty spurt archaic machinery set to work then like crystal water flows and gives birth to all that grows Down the rock moss-covered path a little alcove lays slightly darker much more cool the sun spotlights the place A little flower, central near lies uncared for and forgotten and its small black flower blooms contracts when one gives it love So the caregiver pulls back and shuts the rusty gate will return again tomorrow to frolic in the sunny place The black flower all alone lives forever and forgotten tries to find a bit of sun or unused soil to set its roots It slowly finds a spot of sun and basks for a few days lets it's vibrant colors show and it is allowed to grow All around it the tress grow and cover it with shade and quickly does the flower go into its hibernetic state As with all things, trees will die sunlight shines through the boughs onto the little flower again and waits for it to wake A quiet wind whispers through a small gust past the flower One wilted leaf falls off and alights upon the fertile soil In the sunny area life is on the bloom the fountain running crystal clear bees pollinating the crimson plants spreading their spring seeds In the little alcove everything is blue and black the little flower center lays hanging its head to the earth It's not paying homage it doesn't move at all the sun returned eight minutes late for now the flower's gone |
This TimeI played the game
I said your name and still I stayed because your love has got me chained I know your love aint no game I said goodbye in my silent ways so now I'm back in the light of a new day People say that I've changed I'm not that boy who used to play the silly games wasting my time on the fuckin' chase Now take me for who I am and I'll absorb all you are because your love it's got me chained to your side don't let me stray so please just stay with me today until tomorrow I know we change I know I've changed I ran the miles away from you I couldn't take yesterdays youth I just couldn't take everything that made me break So since I've returned and looked in your eyes those feelings returned though I thought they were lies |
The UnfinishedWith your blond hair and blue eyes
a joke on your lips makes you smile inside the nightingale sings a song in your heart you teach us each one by one the pain is tearing us apart oceans of crystal, rivers of red gossamer butterflies with wings made of lead the hurting is heavy and weighs on us all slowly we lower our heads to Earth on our knees we will fall send prayers up to Heaven, the light of the moon is the light of the sun just reflected too soon out of the darkness you transcend to Hope the palace of diamond with the mercury moat out of the hole on a spiderweb thread to the ivy green forest it was my heart that bled crimson liquid with fire force can never bring you back from that dark and angry course the gods must be willing to keep you with us |